Sitting here tonight has made me do a lot of thinking. I miss Eric so much. Everytime he leaves, it's as if he takes a part of me with him. I'm simply not the same when we're not together. Even if it's only for a week this time, it's so hard to not be with him. I look forward to the day when we don't have to be apart like this anymore.
We'll be down at the beach next week. We'll spend ten amazing days down there, then I'll come back without him, and it'll be absolutely awful living without him for a month or so until the next time that he comes up to visit. During those times, hours feel like days. All I can think of is how I wish I was with him, and how being five hundred miles from each other is just awful.
I try to remain positive. It's so hard though, when you want to be with someone so badly. When you love someone with every fiber of your being, and you have to spend a month or more apart, it just hurts. Having your relationship reduced to IM'ing and late night web cam sessions just makes it seem unfair.
Don't get me wrong, our relationship is the most wonderful relationship I've ever been in. He completes me. If I had to go back and do it all over again, I would in a heartbeat for him. I could never do it for anyone else though. It's just too painful.
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